Reflections on the Nature of Being Broken

Usually, these days, I fall asleep pretty much instantly, but for some reason last night my mind was running thinking about this. Promising myself I’d write it down and share it was  enough to let me sleep. Let’s see if I can put a lot of disjointed thoughts together into a coherent form that maybe people can make sense of. It occurred to me that ‘broken,’ which is mostly how I feel these day, is a relative and situational concept. And I think maybe it’s less that I’m broken than that much of the world is and I’m just not…

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Cory’s Day At College

Cory came to the college with me today. Yesterday, after my class at the Humane Society, I spent some time talking to one of the techs, and she agreed that what I was describing wasn’t normal for a kitten of his age. She suggested that I get one of my vet teachers to look at him, and assured me that if necessary, Cory can be classified as a Special Needs adoption, not just sent off to take his chances. So, since Sean was busy for a fair bit of today and Cory would have been alone, and since both my…

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Life and school

Where did that tidal wave of tests and assignments come from for the last couple of weeks? Well, okay, we’re getting farther into the program now, so of course there’s tests and things starting to turn up. So far, though, I’m doing good! Computer Literacy: I no longer have to take because I passed a competency test Lab Animal Handling: first test in theory (legal requirements for housing and handling animals in pounds and research facilities) is next week, and I think I’m improving in the practical rat and mouse handling… although those are REALLY unfriendly mice Livestock Care: first…

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December, finally over!

Okay, December has never exactly been my favourite month. (Well, nothing between Hallowe’en and the spring equinox ever is.) Even though I don’t do the Christmas thing, it still always manages to be a hectic and stressful time of year. This year, no exception. The financial situation, after a year and a half off work due to a depression that lasted about six months, is a nightmare, and is periodically triggering some rather unpleasant anxiety. ‘Nuff said, I’ll spare you the details. Getting enrolled in college and getting my student loan sorted out turned out to be a bureaucratic hassle,…

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Good thing I’m changing careers anyway

I’ve had transcription to do for, man, ages now.  Weeks.  Which I’ve been trying and trying and trying to make myself do.  Now, to understand how weird this is, you need to know that transcription, typing stuff straight from dictation while using a foot pedal to control play-rewind-FF, is something that I’ve enjoyed ever since college, was one of my favourite parts of my 3-year psychiatry job, and was (in theory) the main part of the job I was in when I got depressed.  I’ve done it from home before.  I even recently bought myself a digital foot pedal, which…

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